oh and its two days from 2014 now

looking back, its been a super great year!

let's review my resolutions:
✓   1. get more experience in research and also apply for scholarships
comments: yup. i got a scholarship and i gained many new skills especially during my research in Taipei.

✓? 2. keep working out!! should gain at least 2-3 kg of weight by the end of 2013.
comments: didn't really go to the gym this year but i always did when i was on the break like spring break and winter break. dunno if i gained 2-3 kg :/ i should weigh myself lol.

✓   3. go to more parties (this should be an easy one since I'll be 21 by March 2013; I seriously can't wait)
comments: i did and i had so much fun!!!

✓? 4. keep the creativity; don't stop taking photos.
comments: well i still took photos but not as much...

i learned and grew a lot personally and in many other aspects.
but it's time to look forward.

my 2014 resolutions:
1. yet again, keep gaining weight. keep eating and working out
2. make major steps in personal life
3. keep up with my good work in lab and school like get more scholarship
4. be a happier person. work on my personal issues like anxiety.

weekend

Friday was basically the same as Thursday.
(kinda like my routine now hahaha)
Saturday same but went partying with F that night.
we went to two bars had some drink and we went to a dance club.
we had lots of fun!
we also talked about deep stuff as we always do.

Sunday.
did chores. dishes laundry. and i also went to my lab.
did go to the gym because i danced too much on Saturday night and i want my body to recover from that plus the workouts throughout the week.

anyway, so far i'm enjoying my break a lot!
and i know i'll be busy again when the school starts.
judging from how many scholarships i'll have to apply and how much work i still need to do for my project....


going to see my friend at the airport tmr morning so yeh going to bed soon have to wake up early

thursday

working in the lab now even though it's almost 10 pm...

monday. i said goodbye to my friend at the airport
then I had a meeting with my PI
did some work and went to the bar and drank alone.

Tuesday
I started to work out
worked in the lab for a while
and went home.

Wednesday
the gym was closed :(
and my whole body was sore
so I went to the lab for a bit then had a dinner with my friend F at Denny's
went to her place and had a drink afterward then went home

Thursday.
went to U vill to get something
then went to the gym even though my body is sore. I still did a bit of weight lifting.
then here I am working in the lab.

it's funny how I struggle every time I have to get on my bike since Wednesday.... my legs are super sore

anyway.... i'm glad I still have a week and a few days of break.
gonna party during the New Years Eve with friends

tuesday

hey guys I was back from Omak on Sunday afternoon.
Sunday was really interesting. we had a bachelor party for a friend of my friend.
really really interesting.

monday. i said goodbye to my friend at the airport
he's went to Texas for Christmas and he'll be back on the 30th.
went to a bar alone Monday night had a whisky 7 double shot.
then i fell asleep around 11 something thanks alcohol.

i'm like really bored.
but i also have to work in the lab.
so that should keep me from boredom.
I just went grocery shopping.
talking to my mom now.
and i'm going to the gym later and will head to my lab after that.
and i'm gonna drink more tonight since it's Christmas eve (yeh? justifiable)

Friday and Saturday

Friday was fun.

it snowed and it's so pretty outside but really cold like -10C

me and my friend went to a ugly sweater party and a local bar/club on friday night.

we danced and drank and hung out with a few other friends of his.

i played pool with some of the friends and i had no idea what i was doing.

saturday was chill.

gonna go to friends' place later and pack tonight

cuz we're going back to seattle Sunday morning.

last batch of FreakNight photos!

oh and don't forget the gifs!!

dash berlin was so excited!!

yay! finally finished the FreakNight video!

enjoy!

Thursday

hey guys,

so today.

my friend took me to Canada and we went wine tasting and had an awesome dinner at the winery.

i had lots of fun! it's also m first time to Canada!

yay for Celsius!! Canada uses metric system.

view from winery.

we went to Timhorn Creek.

 ahhh the view was just so wonderful!!

dinner at Miradoro

the boundary between USA and Canada. I'm in between!!

and found this awesome candy at the local 7-11 in Canada. it's the same as the one i had many years ago in Singapore.

5 more photos from FreakNight!

hope you enjoy them! more to come!!

photos from FreakNight 2013

hey guys sorry I've been taking my time off.
but i finally got a bit of time to compose the post I wrote earlier and here's another post of my progress on FreakNight photos.
more to come!!

 

But autumn quarter

Friday was fun. worked in the lab and went to the end of the year dinner with my lab then went to Capitol Hill with friends.

Things got a bit out of hand later that night because of our drunkness but everything's fine now.

Finished my grad school application essay on Saturday and packed up on Saturday night. my friend drove me back to his home on Sunday.
Now I'm back to my friends home and staying here for a week with his family.
The view is gorgeous here
and it's snowing a little today.
I'm really enjoying my time off from work and school right now.
feels awesome!

here are some photos so far!

 photo on our way to Omak. isn't the view breathtaking?

my friend and me.

some panorama of Omak. it's a small town.

then my friend brought me and his friends with their kid to a nearby lake called Greenlake

it's frozen. but you can still see the water at the bottom.

pretty huh?? :D

and i have finally started working on my photos and video from freak night. so stay tuned.

Friday

Thursday I did some lab work

Then Friday it's a busy day for me.

Stayed in the lab for the whole afternoon.

Now I'm having dinner with my lab.

Our end of the year dinner.

I was the last one to arrive. Just casually sipping my wine at the end of the table and observing everyone

Love it.

Getting a bit tipsy. 

And I'm going out to party after the dinner with my friends

I'm so ready to get drunk and have fun!!

This quarter was hard! I need to unwind.

Wednesday

Tuesday was productive.

Got mail, turned in my lab notebook, sold my CSE142 textbook for $65 (bought it on amazon for 80 something), went to the bank and had a $25 fee refunded and also got a new debit card cuz my old one is falling apart, then got a haircut.

Oh and I also did my laundry.

Had my first and last final exam on Wednesday. I went ok. Did not finish all the questions but had most if them done.

Then hung out with my friend.

Went shopping and had din din.

Still have a bit of work to do before I start my winter break. But I'm going to take my time off a little bit.

More Cyriak videos!!

have been studying hard

well not like really hard but yeh
it's finals week on Monday
and i only have one final exam on Wed
and a few paper due this week

went to bar on Friday night and just had a few drinks but got really drunk.
i missed alcohol so much! and i had so much fun!

i think i'm in a good position now.
i can take my time working on my capstone project report. it's a draft so yeh

oh and i just found this video

directed by Cyriak one of my favorite video director!

my GRE scores are out

verbal i got a worse result. 152 which is a 53% percentile. i got 154 last time.
math i got a better result. 167 which is a 95%. i got 162 last time.
writing i got a better result. 3.5 which is a 35% percentile. i got 3.0 last time.

i'm doing well.
my acid reflux has been greatly improved since yesterday which is awesome.
still having sore throat and coughing. it's taking forever for me to recover from that.

school works are going well.
a final project is due this week and me and my group are almost done with that.
just have a few more papers to really worry about and most are not due until next week.
and they're not really hard.
i don't even want to worry about my CSE final next Wed. it's easy. I'll just do my best do not want to spend extra time on studying for it.

last week of school facing pretty bad depression/anxiety(?) right now

so my Thanksgiving wasn't so great.
i got sick the second night and threw up twice and had diarrhea
my friend and his family took very good care of me.
(i even got my friend sick and he threw up as well)
i didn't really eat anything for i think two days. cuz i was really afraid that i might throw up again.
but i've started eating again on Sunday. but I'm still feeling weak and stomach still isn't recovered yet.

i am back two years ago when i always felt like throwing up.
i know for sure that's it's my acid reflux so i'm taking my proton pump inhibitor every morning right now
and hopefully i'll recover sometime this week.

and today i just feel awful all the time.
i don't really know why but i just keep thinking very negatively on everything.
like EVERYTHING.
how i am less attractive or desirable than most people, how many work i have to do and i don't think i can do them well... etc.
it's weird how when i'm weak physically makes me feel so anxious and depressed.

but yeh. i really have to go through this week or the stupidest week ever because there's no point of having class right now. it's finals next week and my instructors have basically covered all of the materials.

another website interested in my photo on flickr

so another website emailed me for permission to use my image
and offered to pay me.
so i got another $20 :D
they're interested in this photo


oh and my Thanksgiving is going really well! It's so beautiful over here!!
i'll take some photo and hopefully i'll post them here soon.
happy Thanksgiving guys!

hi guys! it's almost Thanksgiving

i'm done with most studying.

now all i have left are proposals/projects/reports which are not fun either.

i have 3 project proposal to write before the end of next week.

wwww can't we just enjoy our Thanksgiving break?

speaking of Thanksgiving,

I'm going to my friend's home.

I've already packed my stuff and are ready.

I'm leaving sometime today (Wed) afternoon

and we're driving to eastern Washington.

I'm staying with him until Sunday night.

I'm so excited!! it's going to be so much fun!

and umm yeh i really have to start working on the photos from Freaknight.... sorry about that.

being quite productive recently (in terms of school) haha

see you guys soon. dunno when i'll post my next entry.

friday finally!!

hey guys,
sorry i haven't really got time to go through my freak night photos and videos...
i should post them soon
hopefully this weekend

i just want the quarter to end already!!!
like homework just never ends! and i hate it! i just want to work and rest when i'm back form work.
but i registered for my class for next quarter already and for now i feel like next quarter is going to be easier!! i think 142 this quarter is taking a lot of time form me since it's a 100 level class, not surprising at all.
anyway, i really want the quarter to end cuz i feel like i've done enough homework already! >_<

so i've been doing well.
just got my midterm for my bioen class i got 83.5 and the average was 83.
not bad

and i went to my counseling session on thursday
and we are currently working on my issues about
1) i lack a way to validate love. instead, i usually search for evidence to invalidate love.
2) when someone ignores me, i just assume that they don't care about me which is irrational.
my counselor wanted me to think about those things over the next two weeks.
and hopefully i'll become a happier and better person!

just had my second GRE test

so yeh i still got a bit nervous before the test
but i think overall i did somehow better than the last test
i got 152 for verbal
and 167 for quantitative (math)
yay for 167 out of 170 on math! love math!!!
and i think i did better on writing this time. but who knows? we'll see

doing well

i can finally take sometime for myself.
i'm done with my application for BS/MS
now i'm just waiting for any last changes
and the recommendation letters from my recommenders.

i'm still working on my app for berkeley and a scholarship
but the deadlines for those are sometime next week.
so for now i don't want to worry about them

um i just took a midterm on friday. it went ok. like i know most of the material
and yeh. i think i'll at least get an average score.

and ummm... i was in the lab for the whole evening on Wednesday. so tired
worked pretty hard this week
and it's time to party and drink and be happy.
i'm so ready!!! it's finally the weekend.

ah these essays and applications

so much to do!!
I've been working on my grad school application for too long
and writing personal statement is just so hard.

it's triggering my impostor syndrome!

my photo is again published

:)
my freelensing is gaining a lot of attention recently.
a photo blog has asked me to explain how to do freelensing
and it's up now!

Hey guys

Sorry. I'm busy with school and grad school application.

I've been doing well.

Mostly recovered from the cold now I'm just coughing :/

I finally got the midterm back. I got 88 on the midterm. The average was 80.

I made a few stupid mistakes but oh well at least I did above average.

Argh I just want the quarter to end already. I hate not being able to stop and relax a little throughout the week. I'm like all over the place and when I'm not all over the place I'm just studying.

Oh and I'm going to have my 4 day weekend. From Saturday to Tuesday :)

And then thanksgiving break! And then winter break.

I feel like the latter weeks are going to get better.

Thursday

hey guys, so i caught a cold and was not feeling well for three days but i'm feeling better now.
still coughing and having stuffy nose.
didn't go to class on Wednesday because i was feeling horrible
but no worries cuz i'm ahead of schedule and there's nothing important that i missed.

anyway, i'm still working on the Freaknight video and photos so stay tuned.

and ummm. yeh i have a midterm on Friday evening. crappy midterm time, i know. but i don't think i really need to study for it because i know the materials really well.

oh and i just had a counseling session with my counselor and
i told him that i am very passive to the point that i assume people don't like me until it is proven.
so like i am always waiting for someone to tell me that they don't like me and i will be like okay and move on.
he asked me if there was any past experience that caused me to be like this and i told him about the incidence in high school in which my best friend just decided to break up with me one day and never to talk with each other again.
it's interesting to think about it now and how i should really change my behavior and feeling in the future because it is so toxic for people around me.
i have to show love to people too.

had so much fun at Freaknight!

saw Dillon Francis, W&W, Benny Benassi, Calvin Harris, Hardwell, New World Punx, ATB, Cosmic Gate, and Infected Mushroom on my first night!
then saw Otto Knows, Nicky Romero (finally), Sebastian Ingrosso, Afrojack, Dash Berlin, and Dannic on my second night!
i danced so much my feet and back hurts!

i also took videos with my iPhone so stay tuned! i'll be posting a video soon.
i also took photos with disposables. i'll develop them soon :)

so much fun! best weekend ever!

and luckily i got this Dash Berlin glowing stick thingy

i got this coin from Faceless from Spirited Away.

Freaknight tonight!!!!!!

guys! i'm so excited!!!!

thursday

hey guys,
so i've been catching up with homework and i'm doing well.
CSE 142 is fun. i like making programs that do fun stuff.

and i've been going something that's really significant. so yeh…
other than that i'm fine just need sometime.

Ohhhh stupid me

While I was cutting pictures out from paper.

I felt the scissors were stuck so I cut through "something" forcefully 

Then I realized it's my USB cord :(

Oops...

Lost doge

about a week ago i was really obsessed with the Doge meme and i came along a few lost dog flyers around the area
so i made a few poster that looked like this

and posted it around the area.
i was such a troll
but anyway, they were taken down quickly. :(

and today when i was walking around the area i saw this.

i guess i was being pretty influential!
people like the meme and apparently wanted to bring it to life again!! :D

saturday

went to a musical called Carrie on Friday night with F and R.
it's really good. very dramatic.
then we went to bars on Cap Hill with few other friends.
i had a great night. got a bit drunk.

studying now. just finished my 142 assignment which was pretty fun to do.
i like created a java script that reads the user's input of exam scores and calculates and compares overall scores.

anyway, i can't wait for Freaknight next Friday and Saturday!!!!
it's a two night event.
it's gonna be so awesome!
Calvin Harris is going and plus a bunch of artists i want to see.
me and my friend are still working on our costumes though.

just look at the set times! i'm so excited!!!!

been studying still...

yeh i'm slowly catching up.
and i just got offered an opportunity to sell my photo to a website for their maintenance page.
i got $20 :D
yay!

wow it's been more than a week since the last update

hey guys, sorry i have been really busy with school lately.
but i finally get some time to blog.

so since last Friday. I've been studying and writing papers and the wrapping up my new Capstone proposal and riding my bike all over the place (i have so much appointments, meetings, and orientations to attend recently). I am writing it all over again. The process usually takes a quarter but i did it in just a week. such a relieve right now.
I worked so hard this Sunday that I feel like it's already Friday now but it's actually just Tuesday. :/
ummm so everything's been going pretty well.
i just did a bunch of laundry. and gonna keep catching up with homework. i used up all my time on the proposal so yeh I'm very behind the schedule now.

the weekend

so unexpectedly I had lots of fun on Friday night.
went to Cap Hill with friends
we went to two clubs. (yay i'm finally in the Q)
we danced so hard. and we got drunk haha.
Cap Hill is just always so much fun.

and i stayed in the lab from 4 till like 10 pm on Saturday just to fabricate some devices.
and i studied most of my spare time.

Friday. final but not really...

so i've been working my ass off. and i've already stayed up late for one night. it's only week 2 guys... :/
but being really productive recently.

I did lots of lab work today. and hopefully i can finish the fabrication of the samples by tomorrow.
and still have assignments to do and a proposal to write.

On Thursday, I lost something really important and i was freaking out.
I looked everywhere and traced back where I went that day but no results.

and today i decided to go to the lost and found in the HUB.
and surprisingly, someone turned it in :D!!!!!!!
i was so happy!!!

anyway, gonna keep working hard this weekend. i have so much to do!

:O

I am having a super super busy week

Classes and meetings.

Weren't done until 7 something on Monday and Wednesday.

I have so much homework already and I still have to fabricate some samples for the lab by Monday and I have to grow a healthy line of stem cell within 2 months and I have to completely revise my capstone project proposal by next weekend and I have to start applying for grad schools whose deadlines are December and I still have to take the GRE again.

It's only the second week of school guys.

And I'm so stressed already.

Sunday

Sorry guys.

I've been a bit busy since school started.

Seattle backs to it rainy days

Grey and chilly windy and rainy

Anyways

I love my classes 

They're super interesting

Thursday,

I had a lunch with my friend F

And we went grocery shopping

It's good to see F. It's been a while.

Gonna hang out with her more in the future. 

And went to my psychiatrist appointment. Talked with him. Excited to see him again next week. I want to improve my mental health you know. I'm always stressed and self conscious.

And went to a birthday party that night.

It was fun.

Friday,

went to happy hours with my friends, C and C, in downtown that evening.

Food was really good.

Saturday,

I did laundry.

And yeh.

Studied throughout the weekend.

 Oh and I also got my gre scores

Did really well on math. I'm on the 84 percentile.

62 percentile on reading

And 14 percentile on writing :(

I think I'm gonna take another gre exam again.

It's Sunday now.

Having brunch with my friends, K and C right now.

Gonna study more later.

Cya!

wednesday first day of school

hey guys so it's the first day of school.
the classes, CSE 142, BIOEN 498 tissue culturing and tissue engineering are interesting.
i love my classes.
and having a bike is just awesome. i can maneuver around campus in speed.
oh and i met P, my high school friend, for lunch.
probably going to see him later tonight. i invited him to Wells.
gonna drink with him and my friends :D

tuesday

went to the career fair

disappointed that there're only like 5 companies there.
but still i had some talk with the representatives
i also met some of my bioengineering friends!!
oh and to my surprise while i was walking back home
i met P, a good friend of my from high school who goes to UC for college.
i haven't talked to him for at least a year!
he's just there!! :D he's presenting his working in the BMES.
we're arranging a time to meet and i want to see his presentation too. :P
anyway, i'm doing good and school starting tmr :/
i guess it's time to get to work!

monday

so far so productive
went to Hall Health to get some tests done.
then had a free hot chocolate with my loyalty card on campus and had lunch too.
then i fixed my resume and prepared for my portfolio with my friend. career fair is tmr.
and there're supposed to be a lab meeting now but i couldn't find anyone in the meeting room so yeh.
a grad student of my lab drove me back and dropped me off on campus. thanks!
and yeh school's starting in like less than 2 days :/

my photo was featured on Flickr blog!!!

hey guys my freelensing photo is featured on the Flickr blog! :D

http://blog.flickr.net/en/2013/09/19/freelensing/

Sunday

Friday was ok. Woke up at 5 something am then went volunteering. I pushed cart around and helped move stuff for the incoming residents. It was rewarding. I like helping people but it also reminded me that I moved all by myself and that was depressing.

Then I went to a career fair workshop. I learned some new things I should do to become a step closer toward my future career.

Went out that night but having stomach problem so I didn't drink much. We went to Baltic room and it was pretty fun.

Saturday was interesting very interesting.

Got into some pretty interesting things.

Sunday was so far so good.