another year passed hello 2015

looking back, its been an even better year! let's review my resolutions for 2014:

:(   1. yet again, keep gaining weight. keep eating and working out.
comment: I did not work out at all this year. damn it. still too skinny i wanna gain some more muscle

:) 2. make major steps in personal life
comment: yup, I did. I came out to my family (my brother, my mom, and dad) and introduced them to my bf and things went really well really surprisingly.

:) 3. keep up with my good work in lab and school like get more scholarship
comment: yup, i'm in the BS/MS program now. got another scholarship in March or something i think. I've also applied to a job.

:) 4. be a happier person. work on my personal issues like anxiety.
comment: yes, I went to the doctor and was diagnosed with depression. i've been taking medication and trying to learn to be more content.

my 2015 resolutions:
1. yet again, keep gaining weight. keep eating and working out
2. finish my masters degree and find a job
3. keep in touch with my family more (since i've come out and there's no reason to hide)
4. fight depression

watch two more movies

Primer was so deep. it's from the same director of Upstream Color.

The Congress was a beautiful movie.
I am in love with this movie.

watch two more movies

i watch two more movies last night

Upstream Color
and
Another Earth

both are them are beautiful.
upstream color is incredibly deep.
another earth is really deep too. they have so much meaning behind what is presented in the film.

I miss chandler so much

Have been pretty productive. Got some research stuff done also finalized the class grade.

Have been watching a movie every night

I watched Lucy, Melancholia, and Chronicle.

My favorite is Melancholia.

It's just so melancholic I can relate to it so much.

it's December

oh my gosh guys sorry i've been updating the blog as i used to...
my blog used to be where i talked about my feelings but now i've come out and have a bf
i don't express my feeling on the blog as often

it's been more than a month since my last post.

i've been pretty busy with school, grading stuff, and research.
now i'm pretty much done for the quarter.
now i just have to finalize the grades for my class
the classes i took this quarter were all really interesting.
however, one of them is super difficult (the imaging one).
but i managed to finished the last homework.
the other class was not too bad.

it's fun being a grader. i get to know the students and keep myself busy
(sometimes really busy, like i need to stay at my office until 10 pm to finished grading midterms)
also the students all respect me and i like that :P

research isn't going really well.
my samples were molded.
i need to do another experiment soon but i will be gone during most of the winter break.

i went to Virginia for my bf's godfather's wedding.
i had lots of fun. but got too drunk during the wedding night.... :P

throughout the thanksgiving i went to my bf's house and saw his parents.
it's always good to see his family.
i finished whole bottle of wine one of the night
and managed to finish two bottle another night.
haha i'm such a drinker.

anyway, i've come to enjoy red wine so much. it tastes soon good with cheese.

now my bf is gone for a business trip and i just chilling.
miss him so much already.