the more i think about it the more i am hating everything including me

especially those young couples, ewww how do they even get in love like seriously. ewww.

i don't know.
i've waited for 21 years and all i got was rejection like i have not enough of that yet.

going to my honor society's party later. i hope i can at least forget about stuff tonight.
but i don't know... it's a party with a lot of socializing. i'll probably just sit in the corner and drink my beer. that's good enough for me.
oh and i got a few works done today. yay me for successfully separating my emotions and work.