it's been another week

hey guys sorry i've been super busy with school and life.

so things have been going well.
wrapping up the proposals.
my grades this quarter so far are going well.
got a 90% on my only midterm this quarter average was 81%

so i'm pretty much done with most of my class works just have to finish writing some portions of proposal
just finished my portion of 498 class proposal.
still have to work on 524 proposal.
and i can finally focus on my Capstone report.

the following weeks are going to be crazy though.
have to move from my dorm to the new apartment, finish up school work, finish up my capstone project.
and my family is coming for my graduation.
and i just picked up my cap and gown. damn it feels weird to be graduating.... i'm like a grown up now...

and to be honest, coming out to my family doesn't really make a difference... haha
i mean it does feel better. like i can talk to them about most of the thing that is going on with my life now which is a good thing

oh and i've started smoking e-cig. i want to switch. plus i'm moving in to the new apartment.
my bf and i make plans on being more healthy this summer.
we're going to work out, cook, and not smoke (exception is when we go out to drink)

and i sat on my finger two days ago and broke my nail. like it cracked D:
it hurt like hell!!!!

anyway, it's all good now.

can't wait for the end of the quarter. i want summer now!!!

i was popular today

bunch of strangers have talked to me
one of the girl told me she liked my bike while i was riding my bike to class and i said thank you
then a guy asked me for a cigarette and he told me that he just broke up with his girlfriend and that they were no longer friends. i said sorry and he said don't be.
then a guy from my class taught me how to reblog post on tumble just by pressing the alt button with a click.
:)

getting better

so a made a major step last Saturday.

I came out to my parents (you probably don't know that I'm gay because I have been hiding it from this blog... my parents read my blog so yeh)

i came out to my brother like maybe 1 to 2 months ago.

anyway, i cried when I came out to them.

they were shocked and didn't really know what to say.

i took like 4 Xanax and drank like 4 bottles of beer that night.

then i went clubbing with my bf and a friend. i barely remember anything that night.

first time "blacking out"

anyway, there's been a lot of school work as well

and i'm just super stressed and depressed.

so i've basically been taking xanax and drinking every night since Saturday until Thursday.

I skipped a few classes because i was so tired and couldn't get out of bed  during that time.

it was awful.

i have stopped my Xanax which i think should do me good.

should not rely on substances you know.

i've been talking to my mom quite a lot and i'm so happy that's she been taking it well.

haven't talked to my dad since saturday but hopefully he'll take it well too

i'm so happy that they still love me and support me.

i'm still kind of getting used to this

but it will get better.

I'm going to a friend's bday party at Cap hill tonight.

then another friend's bday party tmr.

hahah oh well.... going to drink again.

it's been a lot to me this past week.

i think i'm strong enough to go through this.
i will update you when things start to clear out and stabilize...

Thoughts

I just watched Riley Rewind

http://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLsXW-9bShL1bE2lV_hCuK6DdrTjRdf7wz

Watch it it's really good and thought provoking.

I started to ask myself a question.

What if I can travel back in time?

And while I was outside smoking

I saw a girl jogging down the street

And I thought,

Even if I changed something in my life by traveling back in time, she's probably still going to jog down this street at that exact moment.

The world is tremendous 

And I am just a tiny part of it.

Things will still go on like it's going to right now.

ok so i think

so i think if i can get through this week then i'll probably be fine for the rest of the quarter.

have a take home midterm this week
a symposium presentation this week
and a major project report due this week.

then i can keep working on many other stuff that are yet to be completed after this week.

except my "business"
other things are going alright.

went partying with friends last Saturday and we got super rach haha

oh and still miss Vegas so much

oh and the weather is super nice this week.
wearing my shorts and getting some sun light... before it gets all gloomy and cold and wet again.

hey guys i've been super busy still

even though i'm already a senior
i'm busier than ever

people think that seniors are not as busy
but i'm a BIOENGINEERING senior and that makes all the difference.

hopefully i can get through this quarter. get so many stuff to do
- 524 project
- 498 project
- 402 report
- capstone project
- moving soon
- undergrad symposium
- personal issues

not fun at all.
getting really stressed.

Dada life just liked my post on Tumblr!!!

ahhhh!!!!