week 3 is almost over

class is going well. enjoy it a lot.
love taking one class so i have more time and my schedule is a lot more flexible.

lab is going alright.
starting experimenting with another cell type cuz the cells I'm working with right now is being a big bitch.

and guess what? I booked the tickets going to Taiwan this June with my bf!
i'm so excited to show him around where i grew up.
he's also never been to Asia so it will definitely be a fun trip for him.

there're ups and downs in my personal life.
recently, i've been a bit more irritated.

I've started my therapy today with my psychiatrist
I like her a lot and i think we will work really well together
the session today was great. I think i know where a lot of my issues are coming from
because the only source of my social interaction and attention is from my bf. whenever, he's not paying enough attention to me, i feel jealous.
also I've had a twin brother (which is like my best friend) for such a long time, I don't know how to approach other and make friends.
I also have jealous and bitterness issue of others.

today she gave me a task of writing down things that make me unhappy and things that make me happy
and we're going to analyze them together when i meet with her next week.
i hope my therapy will help me to become a better person :)

week 1 is almost over

so far i've been super productive on my first week of school.
i had a good break so i'm completely ready for this quarter
i'm taking only one class BIOEN 577 cell and protein interaction.
i like it and i'm going to learn so much from the class.

because i'm taking only one class i have so much time to do things i want to do.

have been working in lab too.
gotta get some nice data this quarter or else i'm screwed.

let's see what else...
oh i will also be starting mental therapy soon
i really want to be a happy person... depression is not fun.

oh and i'm slowly working out my schedule
i want to start working out too.

another year passed hello 2015

looking back, its been an even better year! let's review my resolutions for 2014:

:(   1. yet again, keep gaining weight. keep eating and working out.
comment: I did not work out at all this year. damn it. still too skinny i wanna gain some more muscle

:) 2. make major steps in personal life
comment: yup, I did. I came out to my family (my brother, my mom, and dad) and introduced them to my bf and things went really well really surprisingly.

:) 3. keep up with my good work in lab and school like get more scholarship
comment: yup, i'm in the BS/MS program now. got another scholarship in March or something i think. I've also applied to a job.

:) 4. be a happier person. work on my personal issues like anxiety.
comment: yes, I went to the doctor and was diagnosed with depression. i've been taking medication and trying to learn to be more content.

my 2015 resolutions:
1. yet again, keep gaining weight. keep eating and working out
2. finish my masters degree and find a job
3. keep in touch with my family more (since i've come out and there's no reason to hide)
4. fight depression

watch two more movies

Primer was so deep. it's from the same director of Upstream Color.

The Congress was a beautiful movie.
I am in love with this movie.

watch two more movies

i watch two more movies last night

Upstream Color
and
Another Earth

both are them are beautiful.
upstream color is incredibly deep.
another earth is really deep too. they have so much meaning behind what is presented in the film.

I miss chandler so much

Have been pretty productive. Got some research stuff done also finalized the class grade.

Have been watching a movie every night

I watched Lucy, Melancholia, and Chronicle.

My favorite is Melancholia.

It's just so melancholic I can relate to it so much.

it's December

oh my gosh guys sorry i've been updating the blog as i used to...
my blog used to be where i talked about my feelings but now i've come out and have a bf
i don't express my feeling on the blog as often

it's been more than a month since my last post.

i've been pretty busy with school, grading stuff, and research.
now i'm pretty much done for the quarter.
now i just have to finalize the grades for my class
the classes i took this quarter were all really interesting.
however, one of them is super difficult (the imaging one).
but i managed to finished the last homework.
the other class was not too bad.

it's fun being a grader. i get to know the students and keep myself busy
(sometimes really busy, like i need to stay at my office until 10 pm to finished grading midterms)
also the students all respect me and i like that :P

research isn't going really well.
my samples were molded.
i need to do another experiment soon but i will be gone during most of the winter break.

i went to Virginia for my bf's godfather's wedding.
i had lots of fun. but got too drunk during the wedding night.... :P

throughout the thanksgiving i went to my bf's house and saw his parents.
it's always good to see his family.
i finished whole bottle of wine one of the night
and managed to finish two bottle another night.
haha i'm such a drinker.

anyway, i've come to enjoy red wine so much. it tastes soon good with cheese.

now my bf is gone for a business trip and i just chilling.
miss him so much already.

FreakNight 2014

updates

hey guys sorry i haven't been updating my blog.

not much has been going on.

i'm getting busier with school and research.

went to Portland last weekend for my bf's cousin's wedding.

i like Portland. we drank and partied so much haha 

i barely remember what happened on Friday night.

this weekend is Halloween!!

my second favorite holiday of the year.

i dressed up as penguin at day and slutty Elsa from Frozen at night.

saw these Canadian geese on my way to get lunch. I had some good conversations with them.

me as slutty Elsa (not fully exposed haha)

anyway FreakNight was fun. my bf and I went on Friday night.

but then Saturday night got cancelled because someone OD'ed on Molly and died at Friday night

everyone was so disappointed...

anyway. my friends and i went to Q nightclub. it was super packed!!! danced so hard that my shirt was completely soaked with my own sweat.

well i have a midterm tomorrow. so i'll ttyl. gonna study for a little bit.

long time no see guys

sorry guys i've just been lazy with writing a blog post
everything's going pretty well
the medication i'm taking is making me feeling better i think
school's going well
BIOEN 599 is a hard class
PABIO 551 is a fun class
my TAing is going well too

and also i have start watching how much i drink
cuz it's going a little out of hand recently....
puked very badly on Wednesday...
oops

anyway
this should be a good and pretty busy quarter

freaknight is coming up! can't wait for halloween!!