photos taken a week ago?

in Gas Works park

finally found out the reason why i have sudden "heart pain""

or i should say it's a left chest pain
it's called Collapsed lung (Spontaneous pneumothorax)
it's when all of a sudden a small portion of your lung collapse
it's more susceptible in tall thin male.

http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmedhealth/PMH0001151/

why do i have so many health issues D:

Muscle dysmorphia

Constantly examine themselves in a mirror
Frequently compare themselves with others
Want to increase muscle mass
Dream of lifting weights and exercise
Become distressed if they miss a workout session or one of their many meals a day
Become distressed if they do not receive enough protein per day in their diet
Neglect jobs, relationships, or family because of excessive exercising

But I really am too skinny. I need muscles!! >:(
My genes suck.
But I think I can do it!

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dunno if i'm overreacting or what...

so i went to Baretells to get a deodorant.
and then i was trying to see if i like the smell or not by spraying some on my hand.
and then one of the store people just stared at me and looked very unhappy and said, "sir, no."
and i said, "i'm sorry.... i was just trying..."
and then i got super frustrated about this
i just feel so unwelcome...

i dunno but he could have said, "sir, please don't try the spray" with a different expression on his face.

and now i just feel like shit.
never going back to Baretells again.

and on my way back i was super unhappy so i just replied simply to people with "yes" and "no" and "thanks" with my head down when i was buying my sandwich and when i encountered one of my roommate.
:(
oh well, gonna have a drink with myself in my room with my dinner from Jimmy Jones.
suck it world.

and i just found out a day ago

that i couldn't take a photo with my DSLR while someone is holding my DSLR showing how freelensing is done....

i need a DSLR from UW but i'm not currently registered so i asked my roommate for help
and yeh i'll be picking up the DSLR with my roommate next Tuesday and then i'll take some photos of Cecilia showing how freelensing is done with the borrowed DSLR.

awesome! seems like things are all planned out now.
still working on the writing part. i'll say i'm more than halfway done.
:D

and oh
i have worked out my daily face-cleaning routine.
so in the "morning," i'll clean my face up and then apply Neutrogena's astringent and then apply sunscreen
at noon, i'll clean my face up again and then apply astringent and sunscreen
at night, i'll clean my face up again and then apply astringent and the benzoyl peroxide.
and hopefully, my face will be acne and scar free. (well some scars will stay for sure, but i have too many scars now which pisses me off)

sleeping issue

so i've been having a lot of sleeping problems lately.
can't fall asleep for more than an hour
like i went to bed last night at around 3 something and then i just tossed and turned
then i saw the twilight.... it's like 5 something... :(
and then i woke up at 8 something and 10 something in the morning
:((

i think it must be that i'm going to bed too late that the circadian cycle catches up with my sleeping pattern
i have to reset my sleeping pattern that's why i'm not going to lab today.
going to go workout earlier today and go to bed earlier today i'll say around 12 or 1
and hopefully i will fall asleep in minutes and have a non-disrupted sleep.

sunscreen

i purchased neutrogena sunscreen for my acne scars yesterday
hopping that it will help fade the dark marks

i applied some onto my face before i went out today
and that smell...

brought me back to the Kending trips my family used to hold every year when i was still in elementary school
the beach, the sand, the hot sun, and
the memories

working on the book right now :D so excited!

i'm writing up the intro and how-to-do-it part for freelensing of the book
including my photos

i know there's one thing in my life i'll probably never going to have.
and i don't think it's so important.

Nothing is working today...

So I was supposed to make 20 samples
But only 3 of them turned out looking alright :(
Tried to catch the shuttle but missed it just right in front of my eyes :(
And it's the last shuttle going back to uw

So I took the bus instead
But like when I was back to my dorm, my roommate came up to me and started to talk to me.
:) good start to know him more.

And yeh it's like 8:00 pm now
I'm still going to the gym.
Must work on my muscles for real.



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The Veldt

quote from a youtube user (i know youtube comments are not so reliable, but this one makes total sense),

#1. You have to read the short story "The Veldt" by Ray Bradbury #2. Look up the game "Limbo" to understand that. #3. Come back, watch the whole thing again, and get blown away.

that's what i did!

it's been a while since updating my life...

so first thing,
i love my roommates.
they're so caring.
like this morning there's a fire drill and cuz i have my acne cream on my face so i looked super weird.
so i kept walking away from people so they wouldn't see my face.
then my roommate said,
"hey stop running away from us." :P
and he kind of caught up with me and yeh... i talked a little bit and kept my face turned away form him.

mmmm and yeh still working out everyday
though it's just sad that i'm still super skinny :(((
but i mean it takes time and it's only been like 2 weeks of workout?
so we'll see about that. i really hate my genes.

and a super good news!!!

a publisher wanted to include my freelensing photos in a book!!!!!!!!!
:D
i saw his email when i just woke up.
so excited!!
he's going to send me the book and some money after it's published!!!!

and deadmau5 released his new song, "The Veldt" loving it!
along with the music video.

the song is based on "The Veldt, " a short story by Ray Bradbury
you should read the short story first and watch the video.
it's kind of creepy.

so yeh,
getting busy
have to write up some freelensing stuff for the publisher
and also i have lab works as usual.

moar photos!

Instead, I went to West Montlake park and the Portage bay area

I've been to West Montlake park the third time now.
super quiet and beautiful place!
this is West Montlake park

and this is Montlake playground

and i just walked at the bank of Portage bay (south of UW medical center)
it's super pretty!!!
i also fed some ducks and crows with my crackers i had with me.
they're so cute!!!
and here's the video.

Disappointment

Montlake playground looks a lot less traveled and boring.
I'm going back now... :/


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Location:19th Ave E,Seattle,United States

Adventure time 2

This time I'm going to Montlake playground.
Here I go!


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i have so many dreams about zombies recently!!

gotta love zombie dreams! super exciting!!!!!

so everything appears to be fine right now.

not feeling nauseous or anything.
but i do got a bit of sore throat and when i was spitting out water when i was brushing my teeth,
there's a little blood in my spit.
maybe it's caused by GERD?
dunno...

anyway, gotta go work out today cuz i didn't go work out yesterday.

articles you might be interested.

MOST IMPORTANT: same as my case

Ambien Can Cause Indigestion

and two other website taking about GERD in general
http://www.modernmedicine.com/modernmedicine/SleepDisorders/ArticleNewsFeed/article/detail/627804

http://www.medhelp.org/posts/Irritable-Bowel-Syndrome-IBS/Is-there-any-relief-from-constant-nausea/show/511885

you guys better help me through my GERD

crackers, proton-pump inhibitor, and TUMS.
you'll be my savior!

oh my goodness, taking sleeping-pill feels exactly like getting drunk.

so it's just the sleeping pill trying to put me back to sleep and let my stomach acid destroy everything then i'll wake up feeling like throwing up
and me trying to not go to sleep and find out more solutions to keep me away from acid damage with calmness and happiness. even though i should really be worried.

still searching on the web or more information

so many people out there are having the same problem!!!

oohhh mannnn.... my response time is slowing down so quickly.
and sooo many typos too.

and when i'm tuning my head around my room,
i found out that my eyes could not focus on a particular thing. it's like everything is just glanced over.

not paying attention to anything now i guess.

SLEEEPING PILLL IS KICKING IN!!

feeling calm and shit.
and creative for some reason.
like just when i was typing these sentence
i imagined a shell covering up these four sentences.

i have my tums, crackers, proton-pump blocker, and water ready just beside of bed.
pillows upright

start to be thinking weird stuffs accompanied with things i'm thinking... @@
so hard to think rationally right now....

no wonder some people take Zolpidem as recreational drug.

and when i'm reading the things i typed i found out that some sentences are not really written by me.
memory loss @@

never mess with Zolpidem!

now i'm not worrying about what will happen after tonight
i just do what i've listed and hopefully everything will be fine.

(i've became so chill and stress-fress now)
it's like i'm in Zen-state and even the horror of possible throwing up tomorrow won't affect me.

oh shit oh shit

i'm totally going to have that awful feeling of throwing up (and hopefully not actually throwing up) sometime tomorrow.

because i just found out (a bit too late) something that can end my awful nights of feeling like throwing up
it's the sleeping-pill my dad gave me!!!!!
Zolpidem!!!!!!!!

now it all makes sense!

so last week when my dad visited me
i took a half of a pill of Zolpidem to help me fall asleep and the next day my stomach was not feeling so well and that night was horrifying!!! the worst night!
so it must be it!!!

i also read tons of other people's experience
people who have GERD and sleeping issue.
they have the same issue!!!!
http://www.peoplespharmacy.com/2007/04/23/ambien-can-caus/

i don't know what to do now
because I JUST TOOK A WHOLE PILL OF ZOLPIDEM!!!! D:
please don't feel like throwing up. please don't please don't!!!
should've found this before i took the pill D:


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yeh, i was feeling really tired when i got back
so i decided to go to sleep and couldn't really fall asleep
that's why i took the Zolpidem.... still super regret about taking it :(

so now
i'll just do anything to prevent GERD from worsening and hopefully lessening the intensity of my acid reflux and nausea.
1. go to sleep later, not now
2. sleep in an upright position ;( not again....
3. take a rabeprazole (which i've already did minutes ago)
4. try not to eat tomorrow (too much food will only make GERD worse)
5. take Tums
basically, i'm trying to make my stomach not acidic and avoid GERD.

what did i do???? D:

photos taken on Space Needle during dad's visit

yay! more freelensing!



enjoy.

well the last photo wasn't taken on the space needle...

look at this lovely place!

gas works park adventure was totally worth it!!
took some photos with my Nikon as well.
back home now.
it's getting dark.

Gas works park. gonna go visit you more soon!

Adventure time!!

Gonna walk to gas works park.
Adventure!!



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photos taken during dad's visit

my workout plan

so i read some articles on the internet.
they say that you MUST let your muscles rest after working out.
also you MUST push your muscles to the maximum.
so here's my plan:
i'll work on each of the three different groups of muscles everyday.
so today, i worked on my "core muscles" including abdominal and back muscles.
tomorrow i'll work on my "leg muscles" including well... legs.
then on the day after tomorrow i'll work on my "arm muscles" including chest and arms.
and then i'll start from core again.
this allows my muscles to rest for around 2 days and also the training will be much more targeted and intense.
and i'm also keeping track of the weights i did to get the maximum improvement.

a bit messy. haha but hopefully this will get my muscles growing!!!
not hopefully.... it MUST >:(

:/

i'm really bad at socializing. like really bad.
and plus i'm still looking too weak too skinny.
i know i need to be patient but my genetics seriously sucks.
i feel like depressing feelings are coming back...

must go work out now and work on my muscle as hard as i can.
you must grow!!!!!!! and i am really serious!!!!

Kept getting waken by noises and remembered tons of dreams and all of them were super exciting!!

I'm satisfied.


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dinner with old friends last evening

Omg

My pillows are so fluffy!!!! :D
I did large scale laundry today. Had my clothes, bed sheet, comforter, and pillows all washed and dried!


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some updates

so i have officially met my new roommates of summer quarter.
anthony, andy, and kevin.
we went out last night and just kinda hung around in the community center and on the ave.
we talked and got to know each other.
i like them.

so yup, i'm keeping up with daily work out and hopefully i can grow some muscles.
hmmm.... and just had dinner with Alan and Sean and their friends at a super close restaurant.
we talked and caught up with each other's life.
and yeh.

side note, i still hate my stomach. (i'm feeling totally fine, i just want to remind myself that my stomach is a bitch.)

most awful night

so i went to bed with feeling of throwing up
and it just got worse and at around 4 something
i woke up with intense feeling of throwing up and i just felt like i couldn't make it.
D:

and then i don't know for how long i'd trying to keep myself up.
i fell asleep and then woke up now feeling fine.

D: now i am so afraid of eating anything.
because i might throw the things i eat up though i'm feeling alright now.

fuck stomach.

sunday

i totally felt like a tourist
i didn't feel like i'm living in Seattle anymore haha
this was what i felt when i was taking my dad around Seattle
and what a coincident (or my dad might be intentional) that it's father's day
and it's such a great way to celebrate and spend my father's day with my dad in a city he had never traveled around.

i went to bed super late last night trying capture and figure out how the cars passing by the street by the hotel were projected onto the wall from the gap of the curtains.
anyway, i woke up at around 11 am by my dad and i took a shower and we checked out from the hotel.

we then dropped our stuff at my place
then we took bus to downtown.
i showed him Pike Place Market, the Post Alley gum wall, Westlake center, Space Needle, Seattle Center(?), and then we had dinner at Cheesecake Factory.
we went to some cool places that i actually haven't been to :D
like the beautiful glass artwork garden

and oh we went up to the observation deck of Space Needle and i took some freelensing photos of Seattle landscape!! can't wait to show you guys!

then we took bus and light rail back to the airport during the night.
on our way to the airport, however, we encountered something rather interesting.
it's a woman who was having a fight with her husband.
then a security person asked her for ticket.
then she began bitching the security person because she thought the security person was being racist.
(the angry woman was the only African American on the train, so.... yeh...)
and then yeh the security person and the woman just bitched each other all the way to the next station.
and then two other security people got on the train and then they all bitched at each other
WTF!!!?
and all the security people just got off the train!!! what!!?

other passengers on the train just kind of ignored the angry woman because she's being too ridiculous.
and then the angry woman saw one of the passenger smiled and she started bitching her and her daughter.
at first, the mom kind of fought back at the angry woman's bitching but then later on she just ignored the bitching.
the angry woman bitched something like,
"all you people must not have bought the tickets."

then finally, at a station, the ridiculous angry woman got off the train and one of the passenger just clapped and cheered.
i just laughed and smiled at all of the passengers who have also been through this torture of angry woman bitching.
then the clapping passenger just walked to the two poor victims and chatted and laughed at how stupid the angry woman was.
haha yeh i can't believe it. that woman was ridiculous!

if i have recorded it and posted it on youtube, it's going to be viral!!

dad visiting

so my dad is here in Seattle.
i woke up this morning 10:30 with my alarm set at 10:00 am
i was incredibly tired cuz i had two sleeping-aid pills and it's still kinda working...

kept telling myself that i had get to the airport on time or else i'm not a good son.
so i finally got out of my bed and took a shower
dressed up, packed up and then microwaved my bagel and had it on my way to bus stop.
took bus to international station and then took light rail to the airport.
i was there earlier so i waited a bit
and i saw my dad waiting for his luggage.
i went up to him and we hugged.

then we took light rail and bus back to U district.
then checked in in a hotel nearby.

then i showed him my dorm and then we walked around campus.
and talked to him about many stuffs.
and took few photos.
had dinner at a Japanese noodle place.
then we headed back to the hotel.

and yeh he's having jet lag so he's already asleep.

going to downtown Seattle tomorrow.
and yeh i'll show him the well known places.

anyway. i think i'm going to bed soon as well with the help with super strong sleeping pill my dad brought with him.

oh oh and i love this video
you have to check it out.

so yeh it took me more than 2 hours to fall asleep

went to bed around 2 and fall asleep around 4
no idea what's going on.
i took 2 sleeping-aid pills around 3 something
they helped me fall asleep? not sure...

Can someone please tell me how to fall asleep???

Have been tossing and turning for more than an hour.


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ok legs are getting really sore

lol went work out today and now my sore legs are getting worse
must sleep a lot tonight!

ok my legs are getting ridiculously sore!!

not sure if i should go to the gym today
or let my muscles rest

wednesday

YES!! my legs hurt!! thanks, work out! now i have to grow some muscles!
eat more and sleep more!!

anyway, today is the same but didn't go to the lab.

and met my new roommate today. forgot his name :(
he's staying here for the summer and he's a senior.
and met his sister as well.

did some light painting tonight!

Me and Pipe

Me and Pipe, a photo by daniellih on Flickr.

tuesday

so my daily routine:

wake up without alarm :D feels awesome.
take a shower
get brunch
go to lab
get back to my apartment
change
go to IMA and work out
get back
have dinner
INTERNET!
sleep!

:D

went to Safeway and bought tons of groceries

oh and yesterday when i was back
Philip's room's door was OPENED!!! like what!!??
it's supposed to be locked but why is it opened??
anyway, it's been opened for two days now and i can walk into Philip's room for no reason.

THANKS!

my Flickr has reached 200,000 views

thanks for all the support!

i figured i should just grab my camera and go out and be creative this evening and this is what i got...

double exposure fun.

words are from the dumpsters near my apartment during moving out at the end of school year.

sunday

a much more fulfilling and productive day.

i woke up around 12
and had breakfast
i had a can of tuna and two energy bar.
stomach became extremely bloated afterwards like i can see my upper left abdomen puffing up.
:(
but like i'm fine after having two pepto bismol

then i went to work out in the IMA!!!
yes! felt so great to be back!
i also got my membership for summer. it's on sale btw :)
did some exercise not too much because i wasn't feeling really well. stupid stomach!!

then i headed back to my room.
on my way back i decided to check if there's glow stick in the emergency red bags
and guess what!!??
i found like 5 freaking green glow sticks!!!!
SUCCESS!!!
now i can always be prepared for glowstick parties ;)

anyway, i decided to go to the lab despite it's sunday afternoon.
because i'll have nothing else to do.
so i'm here in SLU lab now and there's no one here LOL!

saturday.

helped frances moving out this afternoon.
i'll count it as my work out.
Frances rented a truck and we loaded the truck and drove to Jacob's place and unload.
tired... :P

and when i was on my way back i saw Michael. he waved and i waved back.
that would probably be the last time i'll ever see him again :(
i help Pipe with finalizing his luggages and took a picture with him.

and i didn't get photo of my other 3 roommates :(

no one is in my apartment now.
it's only me!!!! holy shit!!!

and i just walked around the dorm area and there's literally no one.
wind blowing, abandoned paper flying everywhere.
and i went to search for glow sticks in those emergency red bags and apparently someone is ahead of me
glow sticks are all gone!

omg. feel so lonely.

saturday

ok the emptiness is really bugging me now.
i just can't stop thinking about how everyone is moving away and it's going to an end now.
the name tag on my roommates' door are gone.
they'll never be here again.
so sad :(

when i wake up,

everything will be different,
my roommates all gone.

nothing to do, literally... haha
well, i'll probably go work out in the gym!
and yeh

spent all night interneting!!!!
like yeh.... :/

hate the transition from heavy work load lifestyle to nothing to do at all lifestyle.
well technically, i have things to do but like it's friday night so i'll just pretend i have nothing to do.

oh well, going to bed now kind of tired for no reason...

good night and have a great weekend!!

sudden burst of sadness

all the people are moving out.

it just looks super sad.

boxes, empty rooms, people hugging and saying "I'll miss you."

thursday/friday

went to the party and it was fun
got to spent time with my friends.
so yeh talked to some of my bioen people and you know what that means... i only talked a little
drank 3 bottles of drinks and i'm fine.
got buzzed a little. haha
didn't really help with my socializing though :/

and yeh it's actually funny how me with other three people walked to QFC bought beer and walked all the way back and all the people were gone.
the party was over.

they said because one of them got really sick and threw up all over the place and yup everyone just left.

oh well.

gonna go to bed!
it's late!

phew!

just did my laundry and a massive room remodeling.
well not really massive but like i got stuff organized and have kind of more space now.
looks like a new room now :D
i'm using space more efficiently
also i made this super ghetto hat hangers in my closet.

went to Target with Frances today.
and had dinner.

YAY!! i still can't believe it's summer!!

i'm done!!!!!

yay! summer has officially started!!

one more to go

finished my 315 final.

it was alright i guess. i didn't know how to answer some of the questions though :/

anyway, after my final i decided to go ask if i can has UPass for summer

and the answer is no.

and i decided to have a lunch anywhere i want 

but i ended up wandering around the campus from by george to mcmahon and then back to by george i didn't know how much time i spent walking around.

well i'm pretty tired right now.

gonna eat some stuff and then go to bed.

then i'll take my last final at 2:30 pm.

tuesday

woke up around 2 today
and studied all day
also went to 315 review session

i feel quite confident and ready about tomorrow's 315 and 220 finals.
:)

going to bed soon..

and here are some new photos i took on Sunday with friends!! :D







i still have to take photo of a few other friends.
they're holding a party on Friday so that'll be my last chance!

and bioen people are holding a party this thursday.
yay so many parties!!
can't wait for the moment when my summer officially begins!!

yay! spent all night interneting and edited my profiles on the internet.

also i'm starting tumblr soon.

fried rice

oh no i'm forgetting how to write chinese characters correctly.
they look retarded.

best arts i've every seen. touched my heart!

http://zenpencils.com/

highly recommended if you like to THINK! ;)

52. PHIL PLAIT: Welcome to science

52. PHIL PLAIT: Welcome to science

damn!!! that nap after final feels great!!

but still have two finals to go :/

monday

i went to bed at 11 something last night
and wasn't able to fall asleep
tossed and turned for more than 1 hour :(
so i got out of bed and took half of my precious sleep pill.
then i fall asleep :)
but now i only have half of my precious sleep pill...

super tired this morning
i convinced myself that i'm going back to bed right after the final
that's when i finally got out of my bed.

316 final was awful!!!
like WHAT THE F!!
after the final everyone was on the hallway talking about how ridiculous it was.
yes it's a ridiculous final.

well at least i'm done with the worst
so it's such as relief.

now i have to be preparing for 315 and bio 220.

and i lied to myself that i'm going to bed after the final
i'm at the library now.
just feel like i have to be outside.
i don't want to feel so alone in my room and stuff.

sunday

woke up at around 12
have been sleeping for more than 10 hours for two nights!
feel awesome.

studied for 316 and had dinner with my friends
also watched a movie called Amélie
it's such a cute movie!
i like it!
i did feel like i could relate to Amélie in many ways too.
we also celebrated Michael's upcoming graduation with a cake and a card.

:D anyway, it's a good day.

gonna continue my studying now and have to go to be early like yesterday cuz my final is at 8:30 am tomorrow. 8:30... why?

oh and i also took some photos with my instax camera i got as my bday gift from Miko.
i'll scan them sometime next week and share them with you.
those are some memories to hold on to.

saturday

my abdominal is alright as it turns out.

and spent my day studying 316.

i still don't feel like i'm ready for the 316 final.

and i'm such an awful person.

in many ways, 

as a student, friend, son... and the list goes on.

i'll have to study more tomorrow and my roommates are going to hold a dinner/movie thing that night.

not sure if i should go or not. don't feel like talking to people right now.

i'm going to bed now. i'm super tired lately.

and i've been waking up several times during my sleep since Thursday. not sure i remember the waking ups.

have no idea what is happening.

Memory

Memory
Originally uploaded by daniellih

why??

D: having abdominal pain. what's going on with my intestines :(??

just had my intestine medication
hopefully i'll feel better later...
please don't spiral down to nausea! D:
and i'm going to bed now though it's only like 10 pm.
goodbye Friday night D:

DUBSTEP CAT!!!

it's been a while and it's finally friday!!

i've been busy with my 315 homework and i'm finally done with it yesterday
feel so relieved!!
anyway, i have 316 final on monday 8:30 am. yes 8:30 :(
have to study for it during the weekend.

two other finals are on wednesday.
so do not have to worry about them right now.

i will pop a bottle of drink just to celebrate i'm officially done with all my classes this school year!

yes it's the last day of classes!! :O

it's been a good day.
not as depressed as me at the start of the week.

have to thank someone online very very much for making me feeling better lately.

and yeh
have a great weekend!!

oh oh oh
and i got a haircut this noon right after my class!! feel so fresh!!
and had some great conversations with the barber!